I AM WHO AM - 3rd Sunday of Lent, Year C
Moses and the Burning Bush, Arnold Friberg |
Readings: http://usccb.org/bible/readings/032419-yearc.cfm
Audio for homily at bottom of post
What would it be like to not exist? How did we even begin existing on this
earth? You could have probably called me
a strange child, because even when I was in grade school, I would sometimes
find myself sitting in my room playing with Legos, and this question coming to
mind – how am I existing right now? How
is it that I, somehow called by the name Billy Cremers (as I went by until 6th
grade – don’t call me that now!), am experiencing this, going from place to
place, even going to sleep and waking up as the same person with the same
memories? I didn’t decide to be here; I
didn’t choose to exist – I simply am – and it almost feels like I’m on a roller
coaster that I can’t get off!
Probably most of you didn’t wonder about this question in
grade school, but I think we all come to moments when something like this comes
to mind. I know how often I take my own life
for granted and become so caught up on what’s going on in the day-to-day, but
then I step back and consider, “What’s the meaning of all of this?” This can especially happen in cases like
today’s Gospel, when we experience different tragedies as are described
here.
The glorious thing is that as believers, we know the answer. We see this very clearly in the first reading
today, when Moses encounters God in the burning bush. Just take a moment and imagine how crazy this
was for Moses, who had been tending the sheep for the past forty years and
certainly wasn’t expecting God to speak to him.
But God becomes manifest through the fire that does not consume,
choosing Moses for this mission to free the Israelites from slavery. Moses asks God this key question, “What is
your name?” God responds with this
strange answer, “I AM WHO AM.” In
Hebrew, this is the name YHWH, spelled with the four letters, and this is God’s
sacred name for the Jewish people. But what
is God really saying with this name? One
answer is that He’s saying that He is the one who always exists, that all
things come from Him. When we say that
God is eternal, without beginning or end, we mean that literally, that He had
no beginning but exists forever from Himself.
Yeah, that’s mind-blowing, but is it really any more mind-blowing than
the fact that we exist? Again, we didn’t
choose to be here – our existence is completely and radically a gift from God. I recently read a quote from St. Irenaeus, who
lived less than 200 years after Christ; Irenaeus says, “In proportion to God’s
need for nothing is man’s need for communion with God.” God needs absolutely nothing - He is self-sufficient
– but we need Him absolutely!
So if our existence is a gift, how is it that we’re
responding to it? Do we receive our life
completely from God, or do we put other things in the way or try to live for
ourselves? Think again of the Israelites
who were led by Moses, who saw God act in their lives time and time again. St. Paul describes in the second reading how
many gifts that God gave the Hebrews – He saved them from slavery, guided them
in the desert, fed them with heavenly food, and showed His power and love
countless times – but they still rejected Him.
And it’s not just the Israelites – how many times throughout history
have members of the Church failed to be faithful to the Lord, how much scandal
arises from rejecting God’s call? In my
own life, I can think of times when I have turned away slightly from God,
trying to define myself and seek after my own self-project, instead of
remaining faithful to the Lord.
Here’s the good news: God remains faithful to us, because
His name is, “I AM WHO AM.” In this time
of Lent, we have this continual opportunity to receive this faithfulness again
and again. Going back to what Fr. Joe
has been speaking about this Lent, we have grime in our life that comes from
sin and broken relationships, and when we take time to examine it, we can often
be surprised how much grime there is. We
know that the grime can be cleaned, but oftentimes, it needs a good amount of
grit to do so. One simple example, I
think about when I worked in the water park concession stand back in high
school and needed to clean out the pans.
I wouldn’t just be content with giving it a quick scrub; I really wanted
to dive in and try getting out as much grease with all the grit that I had, but
the work paid off when my supervisors said they never saw cleaner pans!
Jesus speaks about this in the Gospel in the parable about
the fig tree; without any work, there can be no fruit. It’s only when the gardener decides to
cultivate and fertilize the ground that there’s the possibility of fruit that
can come forth. This is why it’s so easy
to fall into sin and vice, because to grow in virtue requires effort. One example comes in judging others or in
trying to tear them down through our thoughts and words. It’s easy to just say, “It’s no big deal,
they’ll never know, it’s just for a good laugh,” – but it takes effort to say, “God,
help me to love them as you love them, to pray for them instead of judging
them.
When our own journey seems rough, here’s what we can
remember: God has shown His grit first.
Again, think about all of the times that His people rejected Him, but
God did not give up – that’s why we have all of the Scriptures as this story of
how God reached out time and time again, ultimately sending His Son into the world
to suffer the passion of the cross. When
we realize that, it empowers us to have this same grit because God is with us,
giving us the strength and energy to combat sin and come toward
reconciliation.
So this is my question for us for this week: in what area of
life are we tempted to give up? Where do
we not see any meaning in our lives? For
me, I can fall into complacency – I’m going to set aside what I know I need to
change, because I’ll just get to it later on.
But that never works! Instead,
what truly works is to realize that God is already here, that He is who is,
that nothing can exist apart from Him, and then we allow Him to burn away what
is keeping us from Him. We receive the
grit to move forward in strength and virtue, not being like those who turn away
but following the Lord absolutely.
Remember: “In proportion to God’s need for nothing is man’s need for
communion with God.” Whatever that area
is, offer it to the Lord upon this altar right now, so that we may receive His
grit and love to carry it forward. Then,
whenever we ask why it is that we’re existing or what meaning our life has, we
can hear God saying to us, even in this moment, “I AM WHO AM.”
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